yeay yeay yeay

2 weeks again it is Chinese New Year !

 this year no one feel really excited for this, everything is so slow . . . from cleaning house. . . tidy up my room. . .  making the new year cookies.. embellish the house so that it will feel the new year atmosphere ( in my memories all of that were doing so quickly in past)   i am just excited about my how much amount i will get in this year and wearing my new clothes! (cuz i really love this year outfits and most of them i got it cheapy!)

but one thing made me worry is . .  i gain weight for these past half year

it is caused by i have no job no school (and also i am indolent to move more)

until now i am still waiting for the announcement of my future ( sigh)

i have tried to lose weight but i gained more weight eventually

T.T

so anyone have the tips and secret to diet for me??

also i feel mundane of this life, i thought it will change better after i have tuition

but. . . my teacher's car is broken last month... and until now it hasnt been fixed up, and i text my teacher when it will be done for twice time, and he didnt reply me at all  -_-

and by now, it is already January,  i am getting more excited plus little bit petrified about my future

cuz it is January, then CNY, then Febuary (vday), then March, then it is April lo! then i will starting to live in sg ! (and between Febuary and March i will know which school i will go), and then i dont know how much money my parents must pay out, and i dont know whether they can afford it or not, if cant? borrow from relatives, then how about the next day, next month, next semester , next year?

will my plan go smoothly as i thought? (having income from blog) will i understand the english that the lecture/friends/senior say??? what if i cant follow the class?? what if i cant find part time job? or even i cant do part time job cuz i cant handle the study? moreover by the next time i go back to batam, maybe i wont sleep at my own room and see my house again cuz probably my family will move out in this August

omg. . . i dont how to express this feeling, i just always pray for that everyday

and my friends have already started their college life/ get job..  i need to wait these all for about 9 months

and i have wasted the 6 months already O.o

i started to feel must to do something.. but it was too LATE already

hahaha, but at least i have do something like improve my english, writing blog, and found out many things that is informative and useful (for a short time) hahahha

anyway, i just hope everything will go as i thought and as i want

HAHAHAHA

wish me GOODLUCK!